My late dad was rock solid while most people in this world live under a rock. He was strong, smart, tall, big-boned, and emotionally unavailable. I don't know why it's so hard for people to understand the emotionally unavailable part. That's the only thing that separated me from my dad and why we had tension.
I am like my mother; loving, affectionate, quirky, gentle, beautiful, love to dance, love to make people laugh, love to cook, and love to write! I am like my dad in certain ways; sweat a lot, I'm private about certain things, I'm smart, I love learning and reading books, and I graduated from college with my Bachelor's at 31 (he was 36).
The reason why I started this blog that way was because someone living under a rock didn't know that men could be emotionally unavailable. Where are you living; this is the 21st Century and you're living in NYC? Have you not met unavailable men? Oh, that's right. You don't date men. You date women. Well, you should learn by now that women, as much as men, are cold and distant.
On a positive note, my dad was calm, cool and collected and being with someone like him is who I aspire to marry. It sucks that he won't ever walk me down the aisle (don't think I want a big wedding for that reason), but my man will be rock solid like my dad. Not an effeminate man, a masculine man! Effeminate men (mostly players) don't match well with me. I need someone who could make me lean in to my soft side. I don't want to be a b*tch and controlling. I want to be sweet and submissive. Toodles! ;)
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